Do you see the light that is reflected back never realizing what is right below the surface?

Or do you peer into the depths, looking for something hidden and special, but ignoring what is offered?

No matter where you focus your eyes, there is always something more to see than what you take in at first glance... 

The true gift is to try to see a little bit of both...

Happy Anniversary Honeymine!!

I took this picture ages ago from the car (no I wasn't driving (I'd never do that... really... I swear...)) and just haven't gotten around to uploading it...

I have a TON of pictures to process but just haven't been motivated...

Sigh.. at least there's good coffee in the void (Kenya Auction Lot, my fav of the bunch so far... :D)

Now to have a stare-down with that mile-long to do list...

Even the fact that nothing makes sense makes no sense...

Because of course things make sense...

Except when they don't...

Caught in a continous balancing act between making a difference and having a life...

Knowing that there will never be enough of either...

The sun is shining but the rocks are slick...

The air is still and heavy and it fills my ears so that I can't hear the singing...

And even though I know which way I should go...

I can't remember why...

Of course that won't stop me from continuing to move forward...

Because after awhile that's just what you do...

How is it possible...

How can I be so happy... and still miss you this much???

I shouldn't look...

and I haven't in a long long time...

Still... there you are...

More beautiful and glorious than ever...

Long after a jump from a high cliff...

Long after that drop held too tightly in an unfeeling hand...

Turning over and over...

Part of the river that flows on and on...........

And not part of it

Even in liquid alone...

Completely alone...

Alternately proud to have come this far...

And anguished at having clung so tightly to things

To people... That didn't really care anyway...

After all this time...

There you are...

I have a country.  I am very much American with every breath I take...

My state will have me as well... and I am not afraid to tell people I'm from Detroit (though really, I'm from the 'burbs, but close enough for 'outsiders')...

And on a smaller scale I have my nuclear and extended family...

but the in-between space... the one between family and state...

There I am a stranger... no matter where I go...

Got a new 'play' computer...

It rocks (yes Ms. Pingvin, I'm talking to YOU)...

Still

I had to rebuild ALL my iTunes playlists...

I'm not sure THAT was a good thing...

What is it about those songs...  Why do they have such a hold on me...

Things I haven't thought about in years...

'And everything I can't remember... as F&$#ed up as it all may seem...'

I wouldn't give up one of them...

Not one..

Still...

Why???

And we are NOT here to drop son #1 off at school...

It's NOT fall...

It's NOT it's NOT!!!

So why do I REALLY want to make this???

They're insidious...  You have to watch them all the TIME!

If you don't you may suddenly find yourself at the crossroads of I-don't-know-what-the-heck-I'm-doing and I'm-right-clicking-and-nothing's-happening

:p